Donnerstag, 7. September 2017
Review "The inexplicable Logic of my Life" by Benjamin Alire Saenz [English Review]
Titel: The inexplicable logic of my life
Autor: Alire Saenz, Benjamin
Verlag: Clarion Books
Seiten: 464 Pages
The first day of senior year:
Everything is about to change. Until this moment, Sal has always been certain of his place with his adoptive gay father and their loving Mexican-American family. But now his own history unexpectedly haunts him, and life-altering events force him and his best friend, Samantha, to confront issues of faith, loss, and grief.
Suddenly Sal is throwing punches, questioning everything, and discovering that he no longer knows who he really is—but if Sal’s not who he thought he was, who is he?
“Words exist only in theory. And then one ordinary day you run into a word that exists only in theory. And you meet it face to face. And then that word becomes someone you know. That word becomes someone you hate. And you take that word with you wherever you go. And you can't pretend it isn't there.”
It was July 2016 when I read about a new book by Benjamin Alire Suanez. It was September 2016 when I finally remembered the title. October, November, December Alire was the only name I typed into Netgalley. It was February 2017 that my heart skipped a beat and my research actually showed me a book. THE BOOK. It was some days later when I got approved. It was several seconds later that I could breathe again. A sensation only the approval of a long wanted book could bring you. No more waiting. It was last night that I had to admit to myself that I don't like this book. It was half on hour ago that I shook my head and actually considered to stop reading it altogether.
As so many other readers I loved loved loved loved Aristoteles and Dante. It was my favorite book of the year. I still recommend it like crazy to every person who dares asking for a recommendation. If I only could have read one book this year, it would have been "The inexplicable logic of my life". My expectations were quite high, so maybe this review isn't really fair. Noone can expect him to write a book as good or even better than Ari & Dante.
That's why I'm sorry. I'm sorry I had so high expectations that this book could only let me down.
Here's what I didn't liked:
Sam. I mean she is basically the main character. She's in every second line. I couldn't stand her. Salvador tries to dress up her flaws as cute and quirky. He can tell himself this for as long as he wants. I still don't like her. She is mean, makes fun of him, makes light of serious situations, is demanding and mobbing. She has not one girl friend and calls everyone a bitch. She runs around being a brat. She 's invasive and pushy to no limit.
For a book that tries to be very openminded and diverse I found some phrases very strange. Things like "for a gay guy, my dad was pretty straight", "one thing about Sam was that she didn't throw like a girl", "and Fito's such a schizophrenic dork", “All three of us wouldn’t make one whole Mexican”, "and Sam was supposed to be a real mexican" just didn't felt fitting.
The book feels longer than it is, and gosh it's long. Plotwise I'm afraid there isn't all too much going on. Yeah so Sal tries to figure out who he is. Several character die. He has a friend that needs help. The rest is just reflection and counting the days with his friends and family. At a point it's just repetitive...
Knowing of the writers poetic past I didn't mind the use off overly dramatic prose. Noone talks like these people in real life. A person like Sal's Dad doesn't exist. In the beginning you follow the flow, you get into this dreamlike state, whishing for humans like Vicente. After 400 pages of his over the top speeches it's kinda over tho...
“Life had its seasons, and the season of letting go would always come, but there was something very beautiful in that, in the letting go. Leaves were always graceful as they floated away from the tree.”
I still gonna carry it in my store, I still gonna recommend it to customers, and my friends surely gonna read it nomatter what I tell them. For me... this was sadly quite a disspointement.
*I received an Arc of this book from the publishers through Netgalley in exchange of an honest review*